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You can call me Noi! This blog consists of my thoughts. I am just a simple person with BIG dreams! Like the charcoal, hot pressure and extreme heat must be present in order to create a Diamond. I am in the exact same process.
Here we go again... / First day of school madness / Get Up! / Happy birthday Miss Sunshine!! / What kind of person? / Time? / Creative Mode / Maximising the holidays / Leaving / Chronicles of the fat girl /
I have been home all day and I am so bored..even though I have been doing worksheets non stop since I woke up. I think I am most defintely not meant to do any kind of desk bound job. I really feel like my butt is expanding the longer I sit down and face the computer.
I actually look forward to go back to work tomorrow. I also got news that I will not be working on Monday due to Youth Day. Normally I would jump for joy but not this time. My only hope is that I am well enough to go back to the gym for classes. I do not know why but not moving as fast as I normally can makes me feel fat. Really. My dear friends have agreed to accompany me to go swimming on Sunday morning at our gym and I am so looking forward to it. Strangely, even though pool has its own jacuzzi, we seldom see a crowd there. Perhaps people would rather go for classes or the gym instead of being in the pool. Anyway, I cannot wait! The last time I went to the pool, my knee joint was so soften and it just felt really good.
You know the opportunity that I turned down a few weeks back? I am begining to see that I made the right decision after all. Imagine going through the training with this knee injury! Plus this training was really bad timing, because we had the year planned out and the fasting month is just round the corner. Its just a bad time to scrambling around doing the normal job and additional training. I mean, with increased workload, by right, there should be increase in salary right? But if that is not happening, why even bother?
Seriously, I do what I do for the sake of the children. I could not care less about the grading (even though I am doing well) and the ranking.
One of my colleages (same profession, different schools) was implying that I was making a huge mistake in turning down this offer because the management (overall in charge) may blacklist me as being defiant. She was also saying that since I was 'chosen' to represent the team of people, I should set the best example that I can be. I was a bit pissed to be honest, but since I am such a 'nice' person of course I did not show that. For me, I KNOW that I am doing a good job, my students know I am doing a wonderful job and my bosses also know I am doing a great job, nothing else matter to me. Its so strange to me why people are so scared of what the bosses of bosses will do to them when they do not comply every single order (yes, order because there is no choice)
Anyway, I have always felt that since you people voted me (I did not ask for this), the next best thing is to trust me and my decisions.
Bottom line, if you feel so insecure about your job and your abilities, start looking for a back up. Look for back up, open up your mind, get new ideas, look around, ask around, stop being judgemental.
In the end, I still know I made the right decision, not just professionally, but personally as well. I could not tell my bosses of the personal reasons why I turned the offer down right, but still I was able to communicate my concerns honestly and the only reason why the boss supported me was because I had shown enough credibility in the 2 years I was there.
You may think that its fun not going to work for a few days but in reality, I actually miss my students so much and I cannot wait to get back to teaching again. I am sure they missed me too.
At the same time, I am working like a maniac going round doing overviews. 59 days to end of fiscal year and 50 days to Eagle Academy. Sometimes, the only person you can really rely on is yourself. I learnt this the hard way, perhaps one day I shall share with you the real story of what I went through.
So many Double Eagles last night, I cannot stand sitting down. I have to get back on stage and see my team on stage. No compromise. It will be hectic these few months and if I do not get these done, my mentor will kick me when she stopped by Singapore soon.
I am getting this done!
2 Eagle legs
Eagle Academy
August 2009
