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Answers! / Saturday, August 19, 2006 @ 1:19 AM
I am sorry for being on hiatus for the past few days. Its been really really hectic for me and I am still wondering how I survived the week.
There have been several things I wanted to write about here. Guess what, I have to do reflection journal for 3 of the modules! Dont get me wrong, I like writing and reflection, thus the blog. However when you are 'forced' to do it, it all becomes not so enjoyable. I started this blog for my own reflection, somehow scattered thoughts become clear and organized when they are laid out in front of you. So imagine writing about my thoughts and feelings after every lesson, it becomes very structured and rigid.
The only good thing that came out this week is that I finally realise the value of time. I dont think most people understand the term 'busy'. Some people just use it as if its a form of accomplishment. Personally, I dont like using the term 'I am busy' because it just tells me you cannot organize your time. Seriously, I hate it when people tell me they are busy because most of time, they are no 'busier' than me. For goodness sake, I am in the middle of moving my residence so I have all these packing to do, trying to finish 100 assignments and running the business all at the same time! Who is busier than me please raise their hands! My dear classmates have been tolerating my complaints and blurness! I am sorry about the complaints, I shall NOT do that anymore. The blurness............hmmm..its just in me! I cant stop being blur! Arghh...but thats what makes me adorable right? Hahaha. (Yeah right)
Sorry, I need to vent. Erase whatever you read from your mind. They are useless facts that is not going to do you any good.
I just came back from BBS! Yippie!!!!! Since its been an exhausting week, I was so looking forward to being here! It was the best!! I am glad that my team was there, I have no doubt that it is growing bigger and more fired up. We are going to rock Singapore man! Woohoo!
I realise from the Vishal and Paru's words that my thoughts have been all over the place this week. I was not focus. All the stress from assignments and projects are all temporary. I am missing the bigger picture. That was why I was so stressed. The future is set, its going to be how I create it now. From now on, focus focus on the big picture. In life, whenever somebody does not have a strong dream, they will run away when things get difficult. I will not run away. I will never run away.
He also mentioned that God will only bless you with success only when HE thinks you are ready. I do not know whether I am ready. Being in the situation that I have been the past year, I had to take leadership whether I was ready or not. It sucks that you have to learn, grow and teach at the same time but through the experience, I now value and appreciate my mentors so much more. Its not easy, but who says the road to success was going to be easy? I am human and I have a blind spot that I cant see. I do not know what some of my weaknesses are and I need people to tell me when I am wrong so that I can improve or at least never do it again.
I also realise that I have not been speaking right. I have been negative! From now on I shall only speak what I want because God only blesses those who speak right. I will try to transform myself. Correction. I will transform myself. I shall not try...its does not work that way.
I promise Samina I shall do it and it shall be done!
For those who have been waiting patiently for the answers, here are they!
1. Are you attached / married ? No, why?
2. Why are you not attached / married? Why not?
3. Why are you still single? Why not?
4. What are you waiting for? Who's waiting?
5. When are you getting married? In the future. February. (Notice I didnt say which year)
6. When do you wanna get pregnant? Followed by the 'girls shouldnt get married too late cos its hard to have babies' speech. Shouldnt it be after I am married? Or you want me to do it now?
7. Do you want me to introduce someone to you? For? I am looking for sharp and ambitious people for my business. Go ahead!
8. Why wont you wear the jewellery? You buying me?
9. Do you date? Yes, today is 18 of August 2006. I never fail to write it down.
10. How old are you? I am not old. Are you?
Basically, I always answer and a question with a question. It is usually annoying to them. Also I like to answer every question with 'why?' For example:
Nosey parker: When you getting married?
Me: Why?
Nosey parker:So I will know when.
Me: Why?
Nosey parker: So I can be happy for you.
Me: I am happy now.Why would you be happy?
Nosey parker: Because blah blah blah
Me: Why? Why? Why?
Most of the times, they will stop at the third 'why'.
Shelli, Dutchbitch, Nurul, and all the single ladies, hope you find these useful! Hahaha! Woohooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
I am sorry for being on hiatus for the past few days. Its been really really hectic for me and I am still wondering how I survived the week.
There have been several things I wanted to write about here. Guess what, I have to do reflection journal for 3 of the modules! Dont get me wrong, I like writing and reflection, thus the blog. However when you are 'forced' to do it, it all becomes not so enjoyable. I started this blog for my own reflection, somehow scattered thoughts become clear and organized when they are laid out in front of you. So imagine writing about my thoughts and feelings after every lesson, it becomes very structured and rigid.
The only good thing that came out this week is that I finally realise the value of time. I dont think most people understand the term 'busy'. Some people just use it as if its a form of accomplishment. Personally, I dont like using the term 'I am busy' because it just tells me you cannot organize your time. Seriously, I hate it when people tell me they are busy because most of time, they are no 'busier' than me. For goodness sake, I am in the middle of moving my residence so I have all these packing to do, trying to finish 100 assignments and running the business all at the same time! Who is busier than me please raise their hands! My dear classmates have been tolerating my complaints and blurness! I am sorry about the complaints, I shall NOT do that anymore. The blurness............hmmm..its just in me! I cant stop being blur! Arghh...but thats what makes me adorable right? Hahaha. (Yeah right)
Sorry, I need to vent. Erase whatever you read from your mind. They are useless facts that is not going to do you any good.
I just came back from BBS! Yippie!!!!! Since its been an exhausting week, I was so looking forward to being here! It was the best!! I am glad that my team was there, I have no doubt that it is growing bigger and more fired up. We are going to rock Singapore man! Woohoo!
I realise from the Vishal and Paru's words that my thoughts have been all over the place this week. I was not focus. All the stress from assignments and projects are all temporary. I am missing the bigger picture. That was why I was so stressed. The future is set, its going to be how I create it now. From now on, focus focus on the big picture. In life, whenever somebody does not have a strong dream, they will run away when things get difficult. I will not run away. I will never run away.
He also mentioned that God will only bless you with success only when HE thinks you are ready. I do not know whether I am ready. Being in the situation that I have been the past year, I had to take leadership whether I was ready or not. It sucks that you have to learn, grow and teach at the same time but through the experience, I now value and appreciate my mentors so much more. Its not easy, but who says the road to success was going to be easy? I am human and I have a blind spot that I cant see. I do not know what some of my weaknesses are and I need people to tell me when I am wrong so that I can improve or at least never do it again.
I also realise that I have not been speaking right. I have been negative! From now on I shall only speak what I want because God only blesses those who speak right. I will try to transform myself. Correction. I will transform myself. I shall not try...its does not work that way.
I promise Samina I shall do it and it shall be done!
For those who have been waiting patiently for the answers, here are they!
1. Are you attached / married ? No, why?
2. Why are you not attached / married? Why not?
3. Why are you still single? Why not?
4. What are you waiting for? Who's waiting?
5. When are you getting married? In the future. February. (Notice I didnt say which year)
6. When do you wanna get pregnant? Followed by the 'girls shouldnt get married too late cos its hard to have babies' speech. Shouldnt it be after I am married? Or you want me to do it now?
7. Do you want me to introduce someone to you? For? I am looking for sharp and ambitious people for my business. Go ahead!
8. Why wont you wear the jewellery? You buying me?
9. Do you date? Yes, today is 18 of August 2006. I never fail to write it down.
10. How old are you? I am not old. Are you?
Basically, I always answer and a question with a question. It is usually annoying to them. Also I like to answer every question with 'why?' For example:
Nosey parker: When you getting married?
Me: Why?
Nosey parker:So I will know when.
Me: Why?
Nosey parker: So I can be happy for you.
Me: I am happy now.Why would you be happy?
Nosey parker: Because blah blah blah
Me: Why? Why? Why?
Most of the times, they will stop at the third 'why'.
Shelli, Dutchbitch, Nurul, and all the single ladies, hope you find these useful! Hahaha! Woohooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
