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Alive and well / Saturday, March 31, 2007 @ 4:18 PM
Hey everyone,
I am back here! Yay. It has been such a hectic week that I sometimes find myself not having the time to eat a proper meal and that in return causes gastric pains which totally suck. The week went by so fast, with no proper sleep as well and believe me when I say that I look like Shrek. For a few days I was even wearing mismatch outfits to classes not only because I did not have the time to iron my clothes properly but also because I was too tired to even care about wearing a mismatch outfit.
So 4 weeks of TP is now over and another 6 more weeks to go. The good thing is that I will be stationed at my base school so no more rushing to bedok for classes! As much as I am glad that the madness in DAS is over, I am a little sadden and worried that I shall not be seeing the kids and my ST. She has been a great help and she certainly cleared a lot of my doubts. Plus I think she has been very patient with my blurness too! Also, one month of attending classes in DAS seem so insufficient to me. There seem to be so many more things to learn. Anyway I shall be keeping in touch with the ST and CT via email in case I do have any questions.
The main difference in DAS is that the teachers are all more positive and more tolerant to the behaviour of the kids. In fact I have never seen anyone get scolded and most of the time, the kids enjoy the classes and look forward to attending them. That is the environment that the teachers had created and just for that I am so full of respect and admiration for the teachers in DAS.
In contrast, even though I find the teachers in my base school ok, they are always so busy and rushing from place to place. As a result, they get annoyed with the kids easily. People are not nice when they are busy. Also the stress of having to finish teaching the curriculum do get to them. This made me so thankful that I am not a teacher who has to do this. Actually I do love what I do and teaching literacy is something I have been wanting to do for a long time. It is just that some teachers do not understand that unlike them, the pace I am going with a child will depend on the child and not me. If the child takes a long time to master the sequence of the alphabet so be it.
So far so good at mainstream but I am now looking at my timetable for next week and it is so packed! Plus the CT has drop me big signs that she needs me to do the informal assessments for those who are suspected of having dyslexia. There is a long list of students waiting for me to get to them! They are actually taking my word very seriously because they said that if I think that a child is not dyslexic, they will not be sending the child to be assessed. This is to save time since the educational psychologists are very busy. My main concern is, what if I am wrong?
I know I have been a big worrier these past weeks. I have also end up being so indecisive and this annoys the hell out of me. I can usually make decisions pretty fast. I hope I get back to my normal self soon.
I had a special meeting with the team on Wed before open meeting. The truth is, I have been wanting to do this for a long time but there will always be someone who cannot make it. Naf and myself are having TP now so making arrangements was a constant challenge. Plus, someone was reluctant to walk a distance because she was wearing heels. Lesson of the day: Heels look good but not good for walking. Neverthless, through some miracle, everyone was able to meet on Wed so we did. My main concerns are:
1. I hope I did not scare anyone with what I said.
2. I hope the team get what I was trying to say.
Through the years, we have seen so much, sadly, more negatives than positives. The only reason why the team is still here is because they are meant to be the winners that I have always known they will be. I am actually so proud of each and every one of you but I find it very difficult to verbalise this. I hope you guys can see from my eyes how much I really love you guys and I am prepared to help you do anything that is beneficial and crucial to your success. I am sure that on the day that I can finally verbalize this, I will have happy tears in my eyes:)
The time will come, I know it will.
In the meantime, keep the faith. The convention happening on the 15th of April is going to so phenomenal!I am so excited! I was so paranoid that I went to HQ to get the tickets for the team on Friday. I am pretty sure it will be a sold out event and I do not want anyone to miss the opportunity to be there.
Yesterday was a tough day. I actually survived the whole day with no food. I had my breakfast, lunch and dinner only at 7 pm in the middle of doing my lesson plan. It was also so crowded in the bus that I was not able to sit down! I was so exhausted that I accidently fell and sit on a student when the bus moved. Plus, my bag was really heavy. Thank goodness no one saw me being such a wreck.
It is time to move forward. I shall not look back. I shall focus on what is to come and not let myself fall deep into the redundance of worrying too much. I shall stay strong no matter what happens. I shall recognize distractions and not let it affect me.
I shall succeed.
Alive and well
Hey everyone,
I am back here! Yay. It has been such a hectic week that I sometimes find myself not having the time to eat a proper meal and that in return causes gastric pains which totally suck. The week went by so fast, with no proper sleep as well and believe me when I say that I look like Shrek. For a few days I was even wearing mismatch outfits to classes not only because I did not have the time to iron my clothes properly but also because I was too tired to even care about wearing a mismatch outfit.
So 4 weeks of TP is now over and another 6 more weeks to go. The good thing is that I will be stationed at my base school so no more rushing to bedok for classes! As much as I am glad that the madness in DAS is over, I am a little sadden and worried that I shall not be seeing the kids and my ST. She has been a great help and she certainly cleared a lot of my doubts. Plus I think she has been very patient with my blurness too! Also, one month of attending classes in DAS seem so insufficient to me. There seem to be so many more things to learn. Anyway I shall be keeping in touch with the ST and CT via email in case I do have any questions.
The main difference in DAS is that the teachers are all more positive and more tolerant to the behaviour of the kids. In fact I have never seen anyone get scolded and most of the time, the kids enjoy the classes and look forward to attending them. That is the environment that the teachers had created and just for that I am so full of respect and admiration for the teachers in DAS.
In contrast, even though I find the teachers in my base school ok, they are always so busy and rushing from place to place. As a result, they get annoyed with the kids easily. People are not nice when they are busy. Also the stress of having to finish teaching the curriculum do get to them. This made me so thankful that I am not a teacher who has to do this. Actually I do love what I do and teaching literacy is something I have been wanting to do for a long time. It is just that some teachers do not understand that unlike them, the pace I am going with a child will depend on the child and not me. If the child takes a long time to master the sequence of the alphabet so be it.
So far so good at mainstream but I am now looking at my timetable for next week and it is so packed! Plus the CT has drop me big signs that she needs me to do the informal assessments for those who are suspected of having dyslexia. There is a long list of students waiting for me to get to them! They are actually taking my word very seriously because they said that if I think that a child is not dyslexic, they will not be sending the child to be assessed. This is to save time since the educational psychologists are very busy. My main concern is, what if I am wrong?
I know I have been a big worrier these past weeks. I have also end up being so indecisive and this annoys the hell out of me. I can usually make decisions pretty fast. I hope I get back to my normal self soon.
I had a special meeting with the team on Wed before open meeting. The truth is, I have been wanting to do this for a long time but there will always be someone who cannot make it. Naf and myself are having TP now so making arrangements was a constant challenge. Plus, someone was reluctant to walk a distance because she was wearing heels. Lesson of the day: Heels look good but not good for walking. Neverthless, through some miracle, everyone was able to meet on Wed so we did. My main concerns are:
1. I hope I did not scare anyone with what I said.
2. I hope the team get what I was trying to say.
Through the years, we have seen so much, sadly, more negatives than positives. The only reason why the team is still here is because they are meant to be the winners that I have always known they will be. I am actually so proud of each and every one of you but I find it very difficult to verbalise this. I hope you guys can see from my eyes how much I really love you guys and I am prepared to help you do anything that is beneficial and crucial to your success. I am sure that on the day that I can finally verbalize this, I will have happy tears in my eyes:)
The time will come, I know it will.
In the meantime, keep the faith. The convention happening on the 15th of April is going to so phenomenal!I am so excited! I was so paranoid that I went to HQ to get the tickets for the team on Friday. I am pretty sure it will be a sold out event and I do not want anyone to miss the opportunity to be there.
Yesterday was a tough day. I actually survived the whole day with no food. I had my breakfast, lunch and dinner only at 7 pm in the middle of doing my lesson plan. It was also so crowded in the bus that I was not able to sit down! I was so exhausted that I accidently fell and sit on a student when the bus moved. Plus, my bag was really heavy. Thank goodness no one saw me being such a wreck.
It is time to move forward. I shall not look back. I shall focus on what is to come and not let myself fall deep into the redundance of worrying too much. I shall stay strong no matter what happens. I shall recognize distractions and not let it affect me.
I shall succeed.
