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Anti favoritism / Saturday, August 18, 2007 @ 11:15 PM
Today I watch my tears stream down my face
In protest of the injustice that has just surfaced
It does suck not being able to use the internet at home. I think my bro will be getting his new computer this week but I also think that I will not be allowed to use it. Sharing stuffs is a big problem at my house only because the male species in the house are super calculative. I actually cannot stand people who are calculative aka stingy. It is like a rule in my house that only the male species are given a priority. Like watching tv or using the computer. If they are watching tv, it is a crime to interrupt even when you explain that you only have 10 minutes of television before you have to go to do the other more important things in your life. I almost think that they WILL die if they do not get to watch the tv.
If you are an adult reading this, you probably realize that growing up was difficult enough without all the favoritism. Even now as an adult, I still face favoritism not in my favour. It is as if being a girl was not good enough. Why is that? Who created this rule? Sometimes I think my parents are not just conventional in their thinking, they are unreasonable at times.
Try living with a prince in the house. You will know what I mean.
I shall credit myself for not attempting anything stupid till now. Almost, but never. I still remember clearly how a friend was being suicidal and I never quite understand why someone would want to end their life. A decade later, I finally understood why.
Can you even blame me for having negative views about the male species? Of course I am not talking about all of them, some are truly wonderful and it is a pity that the reputation of the male species is tarnished by plain stupidity existing in some of them.
I shall not move on about this.
I shall not cling on to my troubled past. There is no value in doing that. Despite all the challenges, I still believe that I meant for greater things. The easiest thing in life is to give up. I shall move forward to growth instead of retreating to safety.
It is not the situation, but the way we respond to the situation that is important.
I was blessed to be at PASE last night. I was able to witness a wonderful demo by Fir and Juliana. 2 people who are representations of simplicity, aced the demos and again, I learnt something new. I was exceptionally proud and glad when Fir presented because I think he knows best about the beverages in our team. Well done! You should definitely speak more often! Still water does run deep.
Now decision time. Eagle by FED? It is not impossible. I AM halfway there. Even with the lack of support in terms of transportation and financial, I still believe that I can make it. I feel like I spend a lot of time waiting for busses since we moved and it totally sucks. It gets in the way of business in a big way and I don’t think the family understands my situation at all. Sadly, I have a lot of nay sayers in the family and thank God I chose NOT to listen to some of the negative things that were programmed into me. Guys, identify these naysayers. It can be in the form of your family or even your closest friends. Being strong mentally, emotionally is not only important, it is a necessity to succeed. You only need 1 person and that person is you.
In spite of all the crap and negativity, I shall credit myself for making right decisions, at least 90% of the time. Maybe that is why I have been independent, I always think that it is up to me to make things work. I cannot rely on anyone, only me. Trust is my most precious commodity and for some of you who have my most precious commodity, congratulations. You are 15% of the population.
This week, I shall take my destiny into my own hands and shape it like it was supposed to be. I shall take charge. I shall finish my remaining assignment and show it as proof of excellence. I shall get it done so I can finally concentrate on being Eagle. Thank you for not believing in me, but what you think does not matter to me. I believe in me and that is what matters.
Eagle is a done deal. I shall prove to you that I am more than nothingness. I shall prove you wrong.
Anti-Favorism
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Today I watch my tears stream down my face
In protest of the injustice that has just surfaced
It does suck not being able to use the internet at home. I think my bro will be getting his new computer this week but I also think that I will not be allowed to use it. Sharing stuffs is a big problem at my house only because the male species in the house are super calculative. I actually cannot stand people who are calculative aka stingy. It is like a rule in my house that only the male species are given a priority. Like watching tv or using the computer. If they are watching tv, it is a crime to interrupt even when you explain that you only have 10 minutes of television before you have to go to do the other more important things in your life. I almost think that they WILL die if they do not get to watch the tv.
If you are an adult reading this, you probably realize that growing up was difficult enough without all the favoritism. Even now as an adult, I still face favoritism not in my favour. It is as if being a girl was not good enough. Why is that? Who created this rule? Sometimes I think my parents are not just conventional in their thinking, they are unreasonable at times.
Try living with a prince in the house. You will know what I mean.
I shall credit myself for not attempting anything stupid till now. Almost, but never. I still remember clearly how a friend was being suicidal and I never quite understand why someone would want to end their life. A decade later, I finally understood why.
Can you even blame me for having negative views about the male species? Of course I am not talking about all of them, some are truly wonderful and it is a pity that the reputation of the male species is tarnished by plain stupidity existing in some of them.
I shall not move on about this.
I shall not cling on to my troubled past. There is no value in doing that. Despite all the challenges, I still believe that I meant for greater things. The easiest thing in life is to give up. I shall move forward to growth instead of retreating to safety.
It is not the situation, but the way we respond to the situation that is important.
I was blessed to be at PASE last night. I was able to witness a wonderful demo by Fir and Juliana. 2 people who are representations of simplicity, aced the demos and again, I learnt something new. I was exceptionally proud and glad when Fir presented because I think he knows best about the beverages in our team. Well done! You should definitely speak more often! Still water does run deep.
Now decision time. Eagle by FED? It is not impossible. I AM halfway there. Even with the lack of support in terms of transportation and financial, I still believe that I can make it. I feel like I spend a lot of time waiting for busses since we moved and it totally sucks. It gets in the way of business in a big way and I don’t think the family understands my situation at all. Sadly, I have a lot of nay sayers in the family and thank God I chose NOT to listen to some of the negative things that were programmed into me. Guys, identify these naysayers. It can be in the form of your family or even your closest friends. Being strong mentally, emotionally is not only important, it is a necessity to succeed. You only need 1 person and that person is you.
In spite of all the crap and negativity, I shall credit myself for making right decisions, at least 90% of the time. Maybe that is why I have been independent, I always think that it is up to me to make things work. I cannot rely on anyone, only me. Trust is my most precious commodity and for some of you who have my most precious commodity, congratulations. You are 15% of the population.
This week, I shall take my destiny into my own hands and shape it like it was supposed to be. I shall take charge. I shall finish my remaining assignment and show it as proof of excellence. I shall get it done so I can finally concentrate on being Eagle. Thank you for not believing in me, but what you think does not matter to me. I believe in me and that is what matters.
Eagle is a done deal. I shall prove to you that I am more than nothingness. I shall prove you wrong.
