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You can call me Noi! This blog consists of my thoughts. I am just a simple person with BIG dreams! Like the charcoal, hot pressure and extreme heat must be present in order to create a Diamond. I am in the exact same process.
To my dear sisters / Verses of love (Ayat-ayat cinta) / Rediscovering faith / In God's time / Discovery! / Breakfast / Blue door / Right time for right things / Peace in any situation / Identifying fears /
From a glance this picture may look like it was taken from the Nutrilite website. However, it is not. I found this gorgeous picture while googling. Maybe it is, and someone is using the picture, I wouldnt know.
Anyway, these few days were filled with so many events, I have trouble deciding what to write on. Hmm, ok, I was a bit disturb on Friday because I saw cut marks on the hand of my student. When I saw the marks, I asked him and he insisted that he fell down and hit a rock. However, the markings looked like it was drawn, it was too neat to be acquired from a fall. It was not my first time seeing marks on the hands of someone. However, I do not know the reason why he did that. For some people, it may not be suicidal, it may be because they want to forget the pain in their heart and in their mind so a physical pain helps to distract that pain. He could also be trying out stuffs, you know, teenagers like to try things and most things they do are stupid things that they will most probably regret later on in life.
Still, what I really hate about this situation is the fact that he did not tell me the truth. My students know very clearly that unlike their other teachers who will scold them, I will not. Therefore, I do share some personal details about myself so that they too, can feel like they are talking to a friend instead of to a teacher. Of course all discussions about personal lives, shall remain confidential to me. For these boys who are in a hurry to grow up, I can understand how they feel and I think the only thing I can do is to be there, just to lend a listening ear, and to give hope that not all is lost.
Prior to that, I had an exciting and fruitful phone meeting on Thursday and Friday nights. I was working mainly on depth and I was telling my team mates that talking to strangers is so much easier and fun than talking to my own acquaintances. Not that my friends are horrible people, but simply because some people will tend to judge me especially after knowing me for a few years. It is so unfair to judge people, even God will only judge us on Judgement Day, what gives the rest of us a right to judge people now?
I am also so baffled why some people do not have the ability and common sense to return calls and smses. An sms will only take 2 minutes of your time for goodness sake, out of courtesy, nothing horrible will happen when you return call. Even if you are scared of me (haha) or you want to run away, at least return my lit packs, I am soooo in short of it right now with going width and depth at the same time.
People should learn to respect other people's time. My time is sooo precious to me, I really cannot stand it when people are not accountable to their words and do not respect my time. You have seriously lost my respect for you when you do this.
Oh well, the awesome Kumar did warn us that we WILL lose the lit packs, and we have to keep on buying but eventually it WILL be worth it. 3 months to go before Kankan and Samina are here and I am almost fully book for the next few weeks. I have a really crazy schedule especially in June, and despite it being the school holidays, it will be busiest time of the year! Woohoo, this growth has been long overdue and now that I am getting back into momentum, I never want to be out of momentum again!
I also just came back from the most phenomenal team meeting. It was full house and people were standing, thank goodness I was early and I got to sit quite front. I am so appreciative of Eddy and Margaret's presence. The little fact about shaking hands of Muslim ladies was an inspiration from me and team (I am sure of that!) and I really appreciate her reminding about that so that the guys in the team, especially the non Muslims can understand why shaking of hands with them is not necessary. Still, I know some of the guys in the team are so excited to see me, and I am also so excited to see them, but we cannot release our excitement in the handshake, we will be frantically waving our hands at each other. Its really cute I know, especially when Boon Xiong does it. He always greets with with such cheerfulness that can light up anyone's face. I am so amazed that such a young mind like his, has the ability to visualise the kind of future that he wants to create. I am sooo proud to be associating with these sharp, young minds and man I wish I was 18 too :p
The 1 lesson that I brought back was about the seed planting. I have been planting seeds for a long time and while some grew really slowly, some dissappeared and died. I am constantly asking myself, am I watering enough water, brought enough sunshine, loving it enough? I do not know. I do know that I am not perfect and I make mistakes. My dear team mates, when you do see me doing that, please forgive me. I am still learning and it remains my hopes and dreams to see you grow into beautiful big tree that will not only provide shade to others, but to also be there for someone to lean on you.
Murli said that the best time to plant seeds was 40 years ago.
The second best time to plant seeds, is now.
Remember, when you do not plant the seeds, nothing will grow. But if you plant more than 30 seeds, you never know, 6 will grow into diamonds;)
See ya all at Monday's home meeting!
