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Fully Alive / Saturday, December 16, 2006 @ 7:29 PM
Fully Alive Had one of the best PASE meeting last night. Last night, we saw so many of the matured ibos speaking up and sharing a bit of their wisdom with the rest of us. As Ender was the host of the evening, you can expect a really exciting PASE meeting. I had initially set my mind to speak about cds to the team. I did. What was unexpected was that Ender has specially called me up to speak about books and I didnt plan anything at all. If you were to ask me to speak up in front of everyone at the last minute like that in the past, I dont think I could do that. Thanks to the system, I could and I am so thankful for that. I read somewhere that public speaking is the biggest fear among so many people. I didnt even realize that I conquered that fear of mine and the feeling is simply magical. Todays SAM session went great. Although I had done this countless times, there is always something to learn and keep in mind for future SAM sessions. In the last few years, I feel like my life has transformed into something that I didnt expect it to be. I had gone through the things I didnt want to, things that scare me, things that annoy me and things that saddens me. The result of all that is a stronger me and I believe that God trusted me enough to let me grow through all those challenges that came my way. God also places angels around me known as real friends who believed in me and He also places friends around me to let me see the difference. I believe that there is a bigger need for me to be strong and mature so I have no choice but to leave my old self behind. I am glad I did because I can never be the person I am today if I didnt do that. Everyone will face a decision making time where they decide what their future will be like. In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing you can do is the wrong thing and the worst thing you can do is nothing. I have come across so many people who gave in to their fear and that lead them to being nobody significant. I feel responsible at times but then someone told me that people are responsible for their own success and failure. Also, people fail to realize that in order to achieve something great, there are sacrifices to be made and action to be done. There is no such thing as something from nothing. I hope that God will eventually lead me to right people and I hope He gives me the wisdom to recognize one. I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance; to live so that which came to me as seed goes to the next as blossom and that which came to me as blossom, goes on as fruit Fully Alive - Dawna Markova |