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You can call me Noi! This blog consists of my thoughts. I am just a simple person with BIG dreams! Like the charcoal, hot pressure and extreme heat must be present in order to create a Diamond. I am in the exact same process.
You can change. / Zombied / 2 roads / Emergency / A great must watch movie / This year / The beginning of 2008 / Eye on horizon / Summary of the day / Settling for something less-- or not /
As most of you know, my school really emphasizes on character. This year, instead of emphasizing on 1 character per week, they have decided to focus on 1 character per month. This month, our topic is 'love'.
I know. Me? Talk about love? I must be kidding right? I can cry watching an animal show rather than a sappy love story. But what was interesting was that my dear principal mentioned about loving oneself before loving others. There is no way you can love another person if you cannot learn to love yourself.
Interesting. I think I read that somewhere. It is not that I do not love myself, its just that there will always be things that I am upset about with myself. It might also be that I have high expectations for myself and that I expect only the best. I have been incredibly dissapointed with myself for not taking actions quick enough, for saying the wrong things to the wrong people, for not being disciplined enough to pick up the phone, for focusing on the wrong stuffs. In this case, I do not think that I have a choice, I do not have anyone around to push me when I am lazy, encourage me when things do not go to plan. I have to depend on me. Even expecting my brother to send me to PASE was a challenge. I ended up being late. I am never late for PASE. How pathetic and sad it is when we live our life depending on people's mood? Think about it.
But still, I also know that I am only human, and I will make mistakes. The difference is, I choose not to keep looking at my mistakes but to move on, change. Someone really wise, whom I truly admire, once told me that God gave us 2 hands because 1 hand is to help ourselves and the other hand is to help others. That is why the poster above is so interesting. So I know I made some 'different' decisions but I also know for a fact that the same differences is what is making me different from the crowd.
With the start of the Buddy Reading Programme this week, I am seriously swamped. I don't remember even being able to make my chair warm before moving on to another class. Timetable issues? Perhaps. I try to leverage the time and even its great for the boys, I seriously overlook the part where I have to prepare the lessons in advance so that it will be smooth sailing.
I think I have to really be careful because if I do not take time, I will be burnout even before the semester ends. This flu bug is annoying especially when almost every boy that came for lessons, came with a runny nose. Our classroom is enclosed and air-conditioned!
Plus I really do not appreciate the extra projects which is equivalent to extra time doing work. I know some people might want to be involve with all these projects to climb the corporate ladder but I am seriously NOT INTERESTED to do that.
So working independently at work and business is not easy at all. Plus, I have not even had the time to do up the SNO blog and I really doubt I can do all that I did last year. If only someone can offer help in any one of these areas, it will be joy.
After seeing Kankan and Samina's new video, I had the weirdest dream. I dreamt that I was at a house with Samina doing counseling and there were people in the background walking around. It was a really huge house.
Just a dream? Of future reality?
I shall be working towards the latter!
Poster from: www.art.com
