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You can call me Noi! This blog consists of my thoughts. I am just a simple person with BIG dreams! Like the charcoal, hot pressure and extreme heat must be present in order to create a Diamond. I am in the exact same process.
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Specially to YOU / Thursday, August 13, 2009 @ 12:16 AM
Dear YOU,
It was so great to see you after a long time. As much as I love seeing you again and we reunite with warmest hugs, I somehow still cannot forget your refusal to somehow help me with the situation I talked to you about. I think you do not realise that you are the only person I came to with this situation and I am really at my wits end with this. It was a difficult decision to even tell you about it but I choose to believe that it was not intentional on your part. Perhaps you too, felt like you cannot do anything about it and that is ok. I shall give you the benefit of the doubt simply because I treasure our friendship so much.
Thank you for saying that I motivate you. I hope I can be that motivating force for you when you want to lose weight! (Even though I do not think you are fat at all!)
Dear YOU,
Thank you for your attention today. I was actually reluctant to do this task but the team behind the scenes had so much confidence and trust that I will do this well. It makes it so much harder to say no when people believe in you. Thank you for that belief. I know it was pretty hot and pretty annoying as well, with the lousy sound system and all. Just know that I was asked to lift up your spirits and make the atmosphere cheerful so that you somehow will forget about the heat. I was really trying my best and I was glad to see some smiles. Perhaps some of you was happy to see me do this again, some of you may not. Its ok, I really understand where you are coming from. What is funny is that even though I have had many many experience hosting and speaking in front of YOU, I still believe that I am still in an ongoing learning process. I still feel like I could have done things better, said nicer things, be more animated and so on. Sooooooooo, please bear with me. It was really not my choice, but the team chose me and I felt like I had to be the responsible person that they have always thought I was.
Pardon me for some mistakes here and there. Hopefully you get to see a fresh new face next time. I will be around to guide and offer assistance and I would very much prefer to be behind the scenes for once.
Dear YOU,
I feel like I have not spend enough time with you lately. I have been very busy and I agree that I sometimes forget things. Today I did something stupid and I acknowledge my mistake. Please understand that I am imperfect and I am still learning to be the person I hope to be. I have changed a lot from when I first started. However, sometimes I wish my dear mentor was around to tell me straight in the face. So that I can change immediately and move on. (I miss them so much.) You can be honest with me and its not a bad thing at all. Figuring out is sometimes hard and I have blind spots all around me. I always feel like I am not good enough but I have learnt to reprimand myself now for even having that thought.
Still, good leadership is all about knowing what to say, when to say, who to say to. I am still learning. Please pardon my actions if its unsatisfactory or offensive to you. When I have so many thoughts running through my head, the emotional me takes a step back and the logical me takes over. I sincerely apologise.
As lady, I know that the emotional me is hard to ignore and sometimes the logical me cannot stand the emotional me. That is why I cannot help but feel bad now, for THAT could have been avoided. Sometimes the tongue is the hardest to hold even though its the lightest. I am truly sorry.
Tonights plan showing by Sami was super awesome, I was so engrossed with his plan, it was of different styles but it was the same awesome plan. So animated, so entertaining, I thought I saw myself in his place. We had almost similar beginnings, you know being stubborn and all.
But his relationship with Rashmi was something that stood out. I seriously think I am going to learn from it. It has never been easy for me to figure a lot of things out and I most certainly do not want any of my team to go through what I went through. Its a lot of time, money, energy, tears wasted.
But on the other hand, perhaps going through some rough road may be what they need to transform into the person they want to be. Who knows....
Please realise that I am imperfect, I am still learning and I make mistakes. My heartfelt apologies if you have ever felt offended, bad from my actions or words. It was never ever intentional. And if this happens again, please say it straight to me. I would prefer it said out than it kept hanging around inside you.
I, on the other hand, will remain quiet until asked next time.
And now we have to bring ourselves together and put this behind us to make this explosive growth happen. I am always here for YOU.
2 Eagle legs
Eagle Academy
September 2009
Specially to YOU
Dear YOU,
It was so great to see you after a long time. As much as I love seeing you again and we reunite with warmest hugs, I somehow still cannot forget your refusal to somehow help me with the situation I talked to you about. I think you do not realise that you are the only person I came to with this situation and I am really at my wits end with this. It was a difficult decision to even tell you about it but I choose to believe that it was not intentional on your part. Perhaps you too, felt like you cannot do anything about it and that is ok. I shall give you the benefit of the doubt simply because I treasure our friendship so much.
Thank you for saying that I motivate you. I hope I can be that motivating force for you when you want to lose weight! (Even though I do not think you are fat at all!)
Dear YOU,
Thank you for your attention today. I was actually reluctant to do this task but the team behind the scenes had so much confidence and trust that I will do this well. It makes it so much harder to say no when people believe in you. Thank you for that belief. I know it was pretty hot and pretty annoying as well, with the lousy sound system and all. Just know that I was asked to lift up your spirits and make the atmosphere cheerful so that you somehow will forget about the heat. I was really trying my best and I was glad to see some smiles. Perhaps some of you was happy to see me do this again, some of you may not. Its ok, I really understand where you are coming from. What is funny is that even though I have had many many experience hosting and speaking in front of YOU, I still believe that I am still in an ongoing learning process. I still feel like I could have done things better, said nicer things, be more animated and so on. Sooooooooo, please bear with me. It was really not my choice, but the team chose me and I felt like I had to be the responsible person that they have always thought I was.
Pardon me for some mistakes here and there. Hopefully you get to see a fresh new face next time. I will be around to guide and offer assistance and I would very much prefer to be behind the scenes for once.
Dear YOU,
I feel like I have not spend enough time with you lately. I have been very busy and I agree that I sometimes forget things. Today I did something stupid and I acknowledge my mistake. Please understand that I am imperfect and I am still learning to be the person I hope to be. I have changed a lot from when I first started. However, sometimes I wish my dear mentor was around to tell me straight in the face. So that I can change immediately and move on. (I miss them so much.) You can be honest with me and its not a bad thing at all. Figuring out is sometimes hard and I have blind spots all around me. I always feel like I am not good enough but I have learnt to reprimand myself now for even having that thought.
Still, good leadership is all about knowing what to say, when to say, who to say to. I am still learning. Please pardon my actions if its unsatisfactory or offensive to you. When I have so many thoughts running through my head, the emotional me takes a step back and the logical me takes over. I sincerely apologise.
As lady, I know that the emotional me is hard to ignore and sometimes the logical me cannot stand the emotional me. That is why I cannot help but feel bad now, for THAT could have been avoided. Sometimes the tongue is the hardest to hold even though its the lightest. I am truly sorry.
Tonights plan showing by Sami was super awesome, I was so engrossed with his plan, it was of different styles but it was the same awesome plan. So animated, so entertaining, I thought I saw myself in his place. We had almost similar beginnings, you know being stubborn and all.
But his relationship with Rashmi was something that stood out. I seriously think I am going to learn from it. It has never been easy for me to figure a lot of things out and I most certainly do not want any of my team to go through what I went through. Its a lot of time, money, energy, tears wasted.
But on the other hand, perhaps going through some rough road may be what they need to transform into the person they want to be. Who knows....
Please realise that I am imperfect, I am still learning and I make mistakes. My heartfelt apologies if you have ever felt offended, bad from my actions or words. It was never ever intentional. And if this happens again, please say it straight to me. I would prefer it said out than it kept hanging around inside you.
I, on the other hand, will remain quiet until asked next time.
And now we have to bring ourselves together and put this behind us to make this explosive growth happen. I am always here for YOU.
2 Eagle legs
Eagle Academy
September 2009
