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You can call me Noi! This blog consists of my thoughts. I am just a simple person with BIG dreams! Like the charcoal, hot pressure and extreme heat must be present in order to create a Diamond. I am in the exact same process.
So little time.. / Late updates! I know. / Spell / An end to a wonderful beginning... / I will not just say it. / No drama please / Done deal!! / Forgive and forget / Earning it / Listen and Learn /
Ok its the 12th today...believe it or not, 12 days of the new year has passed and I have yet to write an 'end of the year' reflections entry. I have been doing so every year without fail but this year was particularly hectic for me. I know what you must be thinking, I am always busy. In fact, just yesterday I was telling someone that peoples' definition of 'busy' varies. For me, it means that I occupy every second of the day, meaning that I have no time for tv at all.
But its ok, because this is the path I have chosen. People misunderstood me, thinking that this arrangement is forever. Its not. Its delayed gratification. It means that I work hard now, towards a more successful future. What is wrong with working hard now to create a better future? We are definitely younger now than in the future right?
Anyway, there is much to celebrate about 2009. The team 'boomed' in 2009, I successfully lost weight, met a bunch of crazy people from the gym, even work, as hectic as it was, was not as stressful as the year before. I think 2009 has really been the best year so far.
While I am proud of myself for the accomplishments, I know that there is still a long way to go and I shall not limit myself or be complacent with the success so far. Leading the team, in particular, is a huge responsibility, we are talking about people's life and dreams here. I do not take it lightly. I will go all the way.
I must credit my dear uplines who decided to come back, because they brought with them the excitement and zest that may be the missing ingredient for a more explosive growth. I am thankful for all that has happened because it made me stronger and taught me valueable lessons on independence. Yes there were bad times, but I was glad that I have always been focus on the bigger picture and I am not easily swayed by the short sightedness of others and their opinions.
And now there is no turning back. To break platinumship this very year is a goal, and a long overdue goal. Its time to make the team proud, and set a good example on how things should be done. To be honest I was extremely touched by the many helping hands that I had along the way when I faced situations. My lovelines are truly the best in the world and I know that the best way to thank them is to achieve this success for myself. I am thankful for their presence in my life.
Next up, 13 kg and counting. I did not even know how I got so far. I think that when I was THAT big, I did not even realise how big I was. While I was always the positive thinker, I was masked from the reality. Towards the end of 2008, some happenings made me reflected on my personal life and when signs dropped right in front of me, I decided that I should take charge and take action. Alhamdulilah, I think God still loves me for Him to arrange such situations to happen, to allow me to realise, reflect and then learn.
Joining the gym was truly one of the best decision that I have ever made. I have always enjoyed aerobics, I used to do it when I was 14 years. But now, doing it with a group of crazy people, with entertaining instructors is so much more enjoyable! When I started, I was so determined to lose the weight that I went alone even when bestie could not make it. I never imagined being so familiar with the routines and the instructors now. Its unbelievable and I am thankful for that.
I also discovered my long lost love for dancing. The last time I danced was in primary school and it was malay dance. Now, so many donkey years later, I am doing it all again ( a bit stiffer haha). I may not be the best dancer of course, but when I dance, I feel like I am a total different person, a side waiting to be unleashed all these while.
My other long lost love was in martial arts and to be able to express myself in kickboxing is really what I have been looking for all these while. I have always regreted giving up taekwando in secondary school and I always wonder where I will be if I did not choose to give that up. So now, to me, KB is my first love and it will always remain as my first love.
Along the way, I also made some really good friends, mostly my dearest banana mates (apparently now well known by regulars :p) and some other ladies. I am thankful for that.
Even in the working world, I thought I achieved the most this year, especially seeing Nat being recognized as the best student in foundation level and making it to normal academic. I was in tears of joy because here is a boy whom I have been supporting since I came to this school. He was like my 'baby' and to see him grow was really rewarding to me. From him, I know that I CAN make a significant difference in a child's life and the child's life is better partly because of me. This is most certainly the right job for me, to take me to where I really want to be. I am thankful for that.
Perhaps the only downside to 2009 was the knee injury. Suddenly being able to jump and run was a blessing, something that I never realise no thanks to my laziness. However, I was blessed to have friends, colleagues and even instructors who cared and somehow I am now known as the girl with the knee injury. Haha.
What was interesting was that during that period of having this knee injury, when I was away from work for 2 weeks and away from doing any workout for 1 whole month, I learned that sometimes we really take the things we can do for granted. I was so determined to get myself well again, to be able to walk independently and go out and do overviews, sign ups etc. I have always been independent so I did not know how to rely on others for help. It was then, that I realised that I shall not be lazy and I will never underestimate my potential and ability ever again. Being able to do workout was a blessing, because I was able to do it, God granted me with arms, legs, body and mind to do it, wont I be wasting God's blessing if I do not make full use of it?
It was then that I decided that I will not allow my laziness or my lack of motivation hinder me from achieving what I can truly be.
This 2010 will be a remarkable continuation from the year before, I am sure. I am very excited and I shall continue to feel blessed by all the happenings because I know everything will happen in its own time.
Here's to a another phenomenal year!
