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Childish Behaviour / Saturday, June 10, 2006 @ 10:21 PM
We all know how children behave sometimes. The tantrums, the screaming, the childish act. Most of us also know that we can forgive them easily as they are protected by the cuteness factor. When a child, call you names, or say something mean, we usually do not take it to heart right? In fact, we will bring ourselves as low as the child and we might even stroke the child's head or pinch the cheek. We can understand that being a child, its difficult to understand the adult world.
But what if this kind of childish behavior is from your parents? What would you do?
Someone once told me that the girl in the family will usually be closer to the dad compared to the mum. In my case that is completely not true. My father used to be my hero, I have always looked up to him. However as I grew older, and looked at others dad, he became less and less of a hero to me. Also, it didnt help that we have absolutely nothing in common and we just cannot be in a decent conversation. I am pretty sad about this. What is worse is that he has made no effort to improve this relationship.
He gets along best with my brother, whom of course is everyones favourite in the family. Being first born, I have made all decisions myself. Everytime I have a major decision to make like what to major in, or any career move, I will ask his opinion first but in return he will ask me to make my own decision since its my own life. Which is fine really. All these years decisions have turned me into a person who rely heavily on my personal preference and instincts. This includes the bad decisions too. This is good as I think he knows I dont like to be restricted.
In fact, one of the reasons why I lost a little hope in guys is seeing him! I dont want to end up with someone like my father, at the age of 50, financially still unstable and absolutely no major accomplishments to be proud of. I realise that I may sound rude but thats just the way I feel and I cant be a two faced and pretend all is well when it is not.
Today, just now, he was fighting with me over the remote! I was having dinner in front of the tv when he just came, pushed the darn table away from me and demanded that I give him the remote. Which is pretty childish to me! Being stubborn, I refused and he started throwing tantrums which is even more ridiculous! The stupid soccer game starts in 1 hour and its like a big deal for him and my brother to NOT miss the prediction, the preview, then after the match, they will go through the goals scored, the angle the goals were scored, the slow motion of the goal being scored, the injured player, what exactly injures him, the slow motion of the player being injured, the interview with the players, the coach, the referee, the whoever is behind the scene.......its insanity!!!!!!!!! Whats more pathetic is its not the first time we fight over the remote-- and I hardly watch tv!
I have come acrossed being rude most of the time but it seem more and more ridiculous for me to accept this kind of ridiculous behaviour. I wish I can live in a separate house altogether. For the benefit of those who do now know, in Singapore, the only way you can live away from your parents is either by getting married and having a shared income with your spouse to buy a house OR rent a room. Ok, option 1 is not going to be anytime soon and even renting a room is so inconvenient and expensive here. I really dont know what to do. Saying something is wrong, not saying anything is wrong too.
He has been sending me to work and school my entire life and these recent years, we can be in the same cab for the entire journey without a word to each other. I look at other people who can have a decent conversation with their parents and I must say I am jealous. This is not the family tradition that I want to continue for my future kids.
I am upset by the lack of respect shown to especially when there are big and major decisions to be made, and I am not allowed to be involved. Its like I am a little girl all over again. As you know, I rarely write about too personal stuffs here so please bear with me.
We all know how children behave sometimes. The tantrums, the screaming, the childish act. Most of us also know that we can forgive them easily as they are protected by the cuteness factor. When a child, call you names, or say something mean, we usually do not take it to heart right? In fact, we will bring ourselves as low as the child and we might even stroke the child's head or pinch the cheek. We can understand that being a child, its difficult to understand the adult world.
But what if this kind of childish behavior is from your parents? What would you do?
Someone once told me that the girl in the family will usually be closer to the dad compared to the mum. In my case that is completely not true. My father used to be my hero, I have always looked up to him. However as I grew older, and looked at others dad, he became less and less of a hero to me. Also, it didnt help that we have absolutely nothing in common and we just cannot be in a decent conversation. I am pretty sad about this. What is worse is that he has made no effort to improve this relationship.
He gets along best with my brother, whom of course is everyones favourite in the family. Being first born, I have made all decisions myself. Everytime I have a major decision to make like what to major in, or any career move, I will ask his opinion first but in return he will ask me to make my own decision since its my own life. Which is fine really. All these years decisions have turned me into a person who rely heavily on my personal preference and instincts. This includes the bad decisions too. This is good as I think he knows I dont like to be restricted.
In fact, one of the reasons why I lost a little hope in guys is seeing him! I dont want to end up with someone like my father, at the age of 50, financially still unstable and absolutely no major accomplishments to be proud of. I realise that I may sound rude but thats just the way I feel and I cant be a two faced and pretend all is well when it is not.
Today, just now, he was fighting with me over the remote! I was having dinner in front of the tv when he just came, pushed the darn table away from me and demanded that I give him the remote. Which is pretty childish to me! Being stubborn, I refused and he started throwing tantrums which is even more ridiculous! The stupid soccer game starts in 1 hour and its like a big deal for him and my brother to NOT miss the prediction, the preview, then after the match, they will go through the goals scored, the angle the goals were scored, the slow motion of the goal being scored, the injured player, what exactly injures him, the slow motion of the player being injured, the interview with the players, the coach, the referee, the whoever is behind the scene.......its insanity!!!!!!!!! Whats more pathetic is its not the first time we fight over the remote-- and I hardly watch tv!
I have come acrossed being rude most of the time but it seem more and more ridiculous for me to accept this kind of ridiculous behaviour. I wish I can live in a separate house altogether. For the benefit of those who do now know, in Singapore, the only way you can live away from your parents is either by getting married and having a shared income with your spouse to buy a house OR rent a room. Ok, option 1 is not going to be anytime soon and even renting a room is so inconvenient and expensive here. I really dont know what to do. Saying something is wrong, not saying anything is wrong too.
He has been sending me to work and school my entire life and these recent years, we can be in the same cab for the entire journey without a word to each other. I look at other people who can have a decent conversation with their parents and I must say I am jealous. This is not the family tradition that I want to continue for my future kids.
I am upset by the lack of respect shown to especially when there are big and major decisions to be made, and I am not allowed to be involved. Its like I am a little girl all over again. As you know, I rarely write about too personal stuffs here so please bear with me.
