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Panda / Thursday, November 23, 2006 @ 11:59 PM
Ok yesterday I must have looked the worst! My eyes were carrying two heavy bags and I looked like I was a related to panda..except that they look way better than me. This time, even concealer was not able to save me. Its probably due to my shockingly short sleeping hours and I was surviving on mainly coffee the past week. Having 3 cups of coffee per day is ok right? Right?! Dont worry I am not shivering and all that but being high on the magical potion I call coffee was not the highlight of my life this week!
As much as I am enjoying the classes in DAS, my eyes seem to still defy my orders that commands it to remain open throughout the lesson. Its refusal to oblige has lead me to come up with a master plan to make sure the eyes do not shy away. I have come up with various ways (thanks to the natural genius quality in me) to make sure it stays open for at least more than half the day and the first plan which was to take coffee have had led me rushing to the toilet every 2 hours! Plan A: Failed Miserably
My next plan was to write, write anything on the lecture notes given that can make me look like I am taking a lot of notes down. However, the big secret is, I was writing commands to myself on paper like, "If you wanna close your eyes its fine but please remain poise!" and "For goodness sake please read your notes when you go home!" So far, my classmate sitting next to me fell for it and he thought I was such an effective note taker! Plan B: Worked!
I realised that I have been speaking the wrong thing! I should be speaking what I want. I have been speaking so much on how much I do not want this thing and its now right in front of me. Now I am torn between accepting it and declining it but either way, I am stucked in this position. Today, I received a sign from a friend to just take the chance but I am still unsure. I am speaking in codes of course because its too embarrassing and I am not sure how to react. I just hope no one will end up being too dissapointed as I hate it when THAT happens.
Yesterday I had the chance to spend some quality time with Naf since function ended earlier than usual. I dont think its very healthy to keep having supper but it seem to be the best time to spend with my eaglets. I want to make sure that this time the eaglets grow correctly so they can soar, be independent and live the successful life that they were meant to life. Yesterday too I was blessed to be accompanied by another good friend to function whom I believe have huge potential not only to grow in this but also to make a huge difference in many peoples life. The similarities among all my eaglets is that they all have such a big, pure heart and being young is definitely and added advantage. Just dont make me feel too old standing next to you;)
Moorthy's plan was awesome but the real person who impressed me was his wife, Valar. She mentioned about us not being perfect and that we constantly need to develop ourselves to create a better us. This is so true as I have seen so many people who sees the flaws and mistakes of everyone except themselves. To be able to change for the better, I have always adopted the policy of being my own worst critic. At the same time, I know when to stop beating myself up and uplift myself when the time come for me to do so. It was not easy of course but hey the most worthwhile things in life are never easy acquire.
I was just talking to Naf about my journey for the past year and I just realise what a tough year it has been for me. I acknowledge that I made a lot of mistakes and some mistakes are just irreversible. I do not aim to dissapoint anyone and I have made a promise to my much appreciated mentors that I shall not give up, but use the challenges as a stepping stone to rise. I appreciated the presence of each and everyone who still stuck around. Thank you for the tremendous amount of belief in me, this is truly a gift and a blessing for me.
No matter what, staying strong is still easier than being a failure. Its basic common sense and sadly some people dont see it. Nevertheless, I shall pray that one day your heart and mind will open and I hope to be the one to congratulate you.
The easiest thing to do in life is to give up. I have no plans for that to happen anytime soon.
Panda
Ok yesterday I must have looked the worst! My eyes were carrying two heavy bags and I looked like I was a related to panda..except that they look way better than me. This time, even concealer was not able to save me. Its probably due to my shockingly short sleeping hours and I was surviving on mainly coffee the past week. Having 3 cups of coffee per day is ok right? Right?! Dont worry I am not shivering and all that but being high on the magical potion I call coffee was not the highlight of my life this week!
As much as I am enjoying the classes in DAS, my eyes seem to still defy my orders that commands it to remain open throughout the lesson. Its refusal to oblige has lead me to come up with a master plan to make sure the eyes do not shy away. I have come up with various ways (thanks to the natural genius quality in me) to make sure it stays open for at least more than half the day and the first plan which was to take coffee have had led me rushing to the toilet every 2 hours! Plan A: Failed Miserably
My next plan was to write, write anything on the lecture notes given that can make me look like I am taking a lot of notes down. However, the big secret is, I was writing commands to myself on paper like, "If you wanna close your eyes its fine but please remain poise!" and "For goodness sake please read your notes when you go home!" So far, my classmate sitting next to me fell for it and he thought I was such an effective note taker! Plan B: Worked!
I realised that I have been speaking the wrong thing! I should be speaking what I want. I have been speaking so much on how much I do not want this thing and its now right in front of me. Now I am torn between accepting it and declining it but either way, I am stucked in this position. Today, I received a sign from a friend to just take the chance but I am still unsure. I am speaking in codes of course because its too embarrassing and I am not sure how to react. I just hope no one will end up being too dissapointed as I hate it when THAT happens.
Yesterday I had the chance to spend some quality time with Naf since function ended earlier than usual. I dont think its very healthy to keep having supper but it seem to be the best time to spend with my eaglets. I want to make sure that this time the eaglets grow correctly so they can soar, be independent and live the successful life that they were meant to life. Yesterday too I was blessed to be accompanied by another good friend to function whom I believe have huge potential not only to grow in this but also to make a huge difference in many peoples life. The similarities among all my eaglets is that they all have such a big, pure heart and being young is definitely and added advantage. Just dont make me feel too old standing next to you;)
Moorthy's plan was awesome but the real person who impressed me was his wife, Valar. She mentioned about us not being perfect and that we constantly need to develop ourselves to create a better us. This is so true as I have seen so many people who sees the flaws and mistakes of everyone except themselves. To be able to change for the better, I have always adopted the policy of being my own worst critic. At the same time, I know when to stop beating myself up and uplift myself when the time come for me to do so. It was not easy of course but hey the most worthwhile things in life are never easy acquire.
I was just talking to Naf about my journey for the past year and I just realise what a tough year it has been for me. I acknowledge that I made a lot of mistakes and some mistakes are just irreversible. I do not aim to dissapoint anyone and I have made a promise to my much appreciated mentors that I shall not give up, but use the challenges as a stepping stone to rise. I appreciated the presence of each and everyone who still stuck around. Thank you for the tremendous amount of belief in me, this is truly a gift and a blessing for me.
No matter what, staying strong is still easier than being a failure. Its basic common sense and sadly some people dont see it. Nevertheless, I shall pray that one day your heart and mind will open and I hope to be the one to congratulate you.
The easiest thing to do in life is to give up. I have no plans for that to happen anytime soon.
