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You can call me Noi! This blog consists of my thoughts. I am just a simple person with BIG dreams! Like the charcoal, hot pressure and extreme heat must be present in order to create a Diamond. I am in the exact same process.
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Give me a break. / Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 12:21 AM
Finally, a night where I do not need to rush to bed, considering that I do not have to wake up early the next morning.When I say that my life has been a hectic rush, do you even have any idea how it is like?
The past few weeks simply flew by me. Sometimes I feel like I am on autopilot, where I am not really there in spirit, only physically. It is scary when we are not fully concious and we do not take time to reflect.
CNY celebrations. It all happened pretty fast when I was suddenly 'chosen' to be part of a performance for the concert. I do not really mind doing it but it required TEAM effort and lots of rehersals in the midst of all the madness.
It was really super short and simple performance but as I was helping to lead the rehersals and give cues, I realise how difficult it is to remember each move at least 2 steps ahead in order to give cue on time. The moment the cue comes in late, they miss a count and the whole routine goes haywire.
As it was truly my first time giving cues, I now understand how awesome my dear instructors really are, to be able to think ahead and at the same time, remembering all the different routines.
Even though it was a crazy last minute performance, I still did not want to make a fool of myself in front of the whole school. Imagine 1200 students. Thats like 24,000 eyes!! The best was the fact that I received a phone call that shocked me, just 2 minutes before we were due on stage. Awesome.
Nevertheless, I thought the performance was ok. Very short and simple, not even close to what I do in normal classes (not that I am expert there too, hahah!)
TEAM meeting was a last minute thing. As usual, I was responsible to speak on one of the topics so that means that I was unable to join the AWDO. It was an easy decision on which to go to but it was difficult missing the AWDO. Anyway, the TEAM meeting awesome as always as I was filled with pride when I saw the Miss America video. Such prestigious brand of products and I am so proud to be in the same association!!
I managed to rush down to town to catch the AWDO but BOB was over by the time I reached because they decided to switched it with FB. The best part was everyone was so sweaty and I was dry. Haha.
Got to take picture with 'sifu'. Made Diddie really jealous hahaha.
AWESOME pictures, all take by Linda's husband who was a professional photographer. It was great to see so many familiar faces.
This was funny. We had actually wanted to take pictures with only Bong but when Bong sat down on the steps, ALL the instructors came and took this picture. I thought, cool but apparently darling Linda had only wanted to take with Bong! It was so funny.
These people never fail to bring me laughter so it was good to see them even though it was only for a short while.
Work update. We had programs happening every week for the past month and thank God for partner who was there for me to whine to and of course its vice versa. This year, we finally managed to run the MSN program, overdue for the longest time.
I thought we did great! So haolian! Haha...The team is really awesome and I am really blessed to have them. I could never have survived it alone!
Banana update: Last week was the first week DD was doing the song 'Down' so the bananas decided to turn up in matching yellow outfit. It was really bright!! Haha.
Signature pose and crazy poses with our instructor, as crazy as us, if not more.
Sometimes, its the people who really made it all better. Honestly I was really stressed from work and I simply cannot get work out of my mind. I feel like the only time work is out of my mind is when I do workout, either KB or dance classes. It has helped me to release stress and find that balance that I desperately needed.
Seriously, there has been so many things in my mind lately. I may seem distracted or simply blur but that is only because I am deep in thought.
Work was incredibly hectic with me running around the school chasing boys for consent forms. Imagine running after 41 forgetful boys!! In fact I was in such rush doing the letter that I type my email address wrongly and I only realised it AFTER I send the letter out to the parents! Argh. I was so pissed with myself.
I take full responsibility for this mistake. Since work has piled up (literally) and all my in trays are really begining to be beyond full, I really need to find some time to sort everything out and reorganise. Its not only at my workstation, its at home too and there are forms, books, cds all lying around everywhere on my desk. I cleared it a while ago but I guess I need to form some kind of a proper filing sytem. I need at least half a day to sit down at my workstation and at home to reorganize and file everything neatly.
Now, how do I do that at work when I struggle to find time to go to the toilet in school?
I also felt that my thought process was affected because everything is messy, I get distracted easily, even my regular mates from the gym thought something was wrong. Truth was, I was / am really stressed and I really do not know how to release it except to go do more workouts. It helped to temporarily stop my brain from worrying.
Sometimes I do feel like my brain continues to work right before I go to sleep and it immediately comes back to activation the moment I wake up.
As much as I love this job, the admin and paperwork is crazy and I really do not want to continue doing this any longer than 3 more years.
Now, as I do my very best to clear the 'cobwebs' around me, I hope what comes with it, is the return of my clear vision. I know I have been distracted, sometimes cranky for the past weeks, so please bear with me. I make mistakes, I hope you realise that I am only human.
I shall continue to perform at the high level of expectation, but sometimes I simply need a break. A much needed break. I know I am expected to stay at this high level of performance, and I really do not want to dissapoint anyone. I have been so tired lately, not from workout but from the mental and emotional pressure. Please give me time to learn from mistakes, room to grow, as I remind you once again, that I am only human.
I make mistakes.
And once this hurdle is over, I shall continue to soar high and make you proud. Success is waiting for me.
Give me a break
Finally, a night where I do not need to rush to bed, considering that I do not have to wake up early the next morning.When I say that my life has been a hectic rush, do you even have any idea how it is like?
The past few weeks simply flew by me. Sometimes I feel like I am on autopilot, where I am not really there in spirit, only physically. It is scary when we are not fully concious and we do not take time to reflect.
CNY celebrations. It all happened pretty fast when I was suddenly 'chosen' to be part of a performance for the concert. I do not really mind doing it but it required TEAM effort and lots of rehersals in the midst of all the madness.
It was really super short and simple performance but as I was helping to lead the rehersals and give cues, I realise how difficult it is to remember each move at least 2 steps ahead in order to give cue on time. The moment the cue comes in late, they miss a count and the whole routine goes haywire.
As it was truly my first time giving cues, I now understand how awesome my dear instructors really are, to be able to think ahead and at the same time, remembering all the different routines.
Even though it was a crazy last minute performance, I still did not want to make a fool of myself in front of the whole school. Imagine 1200 students. Thats like 24,000 eyes!! The best was the fact that I received a phone call that shocked me, just 2 minutes before we were due on stage. Awesome.
Nevertheless, I thought the performance was ok. Very short and simple, not even close to what I do in normal classes (not that I am expert there too, hahah!)
TEAM meeting was a last minute thing. As usual, I was responsible to speak on one of the topics so that means that I was unable to join the AWDO. It was an easy decision on which to go to but it was difficult missing the AWDO. Anyway, the TEAM meeting awesome as always as I was filled with pride when I saw the Miss America video. Such prestigious brand of products and I am so proud to be in the same association!!
I managed to rush down to town to catch the AWDO but BOB was over by the time I reached because they decided to switched it with FB. The best part was everyone was so sweaty and I was dry. Haha.
Got to take picture with 'sifu'. Made Diddie really jealous hahaha.
AWESOME pictures, all take by Linda's husband who was a professional photographer. It was great to see so many familiar faces.
This was funny. We had actually wanted to take pictures with only Bong but when Bong sat down on the steps, ALL the instructors came and took this picture. I thought, cool but apparently darling Linda had only wanted to take with Bong! It was so funny.
These people never fail to bring me laughter so it was good to see them even though it was only for a short while.
Work update. We had programs happening every week for the past month and thank God for partner who was there for me to whine to and of course its vice versa. This year, we finally managed to run the MSN program, overdue for the longest time.
I thought we did great! So haolian! Haha...The team is really awesome and I am really blessed to have them. I could never have survived it alone!
Banana update: Last week was the first week DD was doing the song 'Down' so the bananas decided to turn up in matching yellow outfit. It was really bright!! Haha.
Signature pose and crazy poses with our instructor, as crazy as us, if not more.
Sometimes, its the people who really made it all better. Honestly I was really stressed from work and I simply cannot get work out of my mind. I feel like the only time work is out of my mind is when I do workout, either KB or dance classes. It has helped me to release stress and find that balance that I desperately needed.
Seriously, there has been so many things in my mind lately. I may seem distracted or simply blur but that is only because I am deep in thought.
Work was incredibly hectic with me running around the school chasing boys for consent forms. Imagine running after 41 forgetful boys!! In fact I was in such rush doing the letter that I type my email address wrongly and I only realised it AFTER I send the letter out to the parents! Argh. I was so pissed with myself.
I take full responsibility for this mistake. Since work has piled up (literally) and all my in trays are really begining to be beyond full, I really need to find some time to sort everything out and reorganise. Its not only at my workstation, its at home too and there are forms, books, cds all lying around everywhere on my desk. I cleared it a while ago but I guess I need to form some kind of a proper filing sytem. I need at least half a day to sit down at my workstation and at home to reorganize and file everything neatly.
Now, how do I do that at work when I struggle to find time to go to the toilet in school?
I also felt that my thought process was affected because everything is messy, I get distracted easily, even my regular mates from the gym thought something was wrong. Truth was, I was / am really stressed and I really do not know how to release it except to go do more workouts. It helped to temporarily stop my brain from worrying.
Sometimes I do feel like my brain continues to work right before I go to sleep and it immediately comes back to activation the moment I wake up.
As much as I love this job, the admin and paperwork is crazy and I really do not want to continue doing this any longer than 3 more years.
Now, as I do my very best to clear the 'cobwebs' around me, I hope what comes with it, is the return of my clear vision. I know I have been distracted, sometimes cranky for the past weeks, so please bear with me. I make mistakes, I hope you realise that I am only human.
I shall continue to perform at the high level of expectation, but sometimes I simply need a break. A much needed break. I know I am expected to stay at this high level of performance, and I really do not want to dissapoint anyone. I have been so tired lately, not from workout but from the mental and emotional pressure. Please give me time to learn from mistakes, room to grow, as I remind you once again, that I am only human.
I make mistakes.
And once this hurdle is over, I shall continue to soar high and make you proud. Success is waiting for me.
