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Self Discovery / Monday, September 18, 2006 @ 11:22 PM
There will be certain times in our lives when we discover things about ourselves that we never used to know. Today I shall reveal some of mine:
1. I am a big liar.
I have always seen myself as a terrible liar. I can never quite pull off a good lie, people can see right through me. Well, that changed today. What happened was, my team and I, consisting of Ulf, Fifi and 1 more person, totally forgot to do what we were suppose to do before our tutorial lesson. We were SUPPOSE to interview at least 1 child on motivation in doin school work.
Soooooooo, when it was time for the class to present their findings, we were all stumped. Of course, considering that the rest of the team has little and no experience with working with children, I had to step up. I managed to write a few things down, the main points and kept in my mind, 2 students, whom I clearly remember asking some of the interview questions listed. And when it was time to present I was speaking so 'confidently' and trust me my hands were cold. I have never ever lied so much in a few minutes! And the best part is, I think the lecturer bought it. Oh well, you guys owe me at least lunch ok! Haha. Please, no more of these ok.
2. I am not as light as the feather.
Despite the fact that I have shed a few kilos, it does not mean that now I am as light as a feather and jumping too much, will cause the leg to hurt. I believe this is because my legs are not able to carry so much weight while jumping around in step class. Nevertheless, I had fun, even though my leg is in pain now.
3. I made so many mistakes.
I just had an eye opening conversation with one of my dear girlfriend. It was not too long but some things she said made me realise the many mistakes that I made in the past. I really appreciate it when people come straight to me to tell me my mistakes and what they do not like about me. Seriously, I do not take offence when people do that. It is only then, I can work on it to make things better or change my working style. I dont like it when people talk behind my back (who does?) . Above all, I really admire honesty and this girlfriend of mine is one of the very few people in this world who can tell me truthfully how she really feel.
I wonder why people dont speak their mind to me. Do you feel like I have a invisible wall around me that I use to shut the world out? I dont think I have but I have no idea how people feel.
I hope you know and understand that everyone has a blind spot and that there are things that I do or say that might not be so pleasant for other people. I will not be aware of it forever if no one come and tell me about it. It was so touching just now, that I almost cried. But I didnt. I think I have done well in that area because I have to be strong for people. I just have to.
When people say they are going through a rough patch in their life, it always makes me wonder, how bad it really is. Sometimes I wonder if whatever they are going through is worse that my challengers. I guess, we always feel like we have the worst problem in the world.
And after the many many costly mistakes, I am still given another chance. Another chance to look inside myself and find that courage within me to keep on going no matter what obstacles stood in the way. Please God reveal to me who are the people who are true, and who are the people wearing masks, as I really do not want to be in a position to judge people.
I am only human. Please forgive me.
There will be certain times in our lives when we discover things about ourselves that we never used to know. Today I shall reveal some of mine:
1. I am a big liar.
I have always seen myself as a terrible liar. I can never quite pull off a good lie, people can see right through me. Well, that changed today. What happened was, my team and I, consisting of Ulf, Fifi and 1 more person, totally forgot to do what we were suppose to do before our tutorial lesson. We were SUPPOSE to interview at least 1 child on motivation in doin school work.
Soooooooo, when it was time for the class to present their findings, we were all stumped. Of course, considering that the rest of the team has little and no experience with working with children, I had to step up. I managed to write a few things down, the main points and kept in my mind, 2 students, whom I clearly remember asking some of the interview questions listed. And when it was time to present I was speaking so 'confidently' and trust me my hands were cold. I have never ever lied so much in a few minutes! And the best part is, I think the lecturer bought it. Oh well, you guys owe me at least lunch ok! Haha. Please, no more of these ok.
2. I am not as light as the feather.
Despite the fact that I have shed a few kilos, it does not mean that now I am as light as a feather and jumping too much, will cause the leg to hurt. I believe this is because my legs are not able to carry so much weight while jumping around in step class. Nevertheless, I had fun, even though my leg is in pain now.
3. I made so many mistakes.
I just had an eye opening conversation with one of my dear girlfriend. It was not too long but some things she said made me realise the many mistakes that I made in the past. I really appreciate it when people come straight to me to tell me my mistakes and what they do not like about me. Seriously, I do not take offence when people do that. It is only then, I can work on it to make things better or change my working style. I dont like it when people talk behind my back (who does?) . Above all, I really admire honesty and this girlfriend of mine is one of the very few people in this world who can tell me truthfully how she really feel.
I wonder why people dont speak their mind to me. Do you feel like I have a invisible wall around me that I use to shut the world out? I dont think I have but I have no idea how people feel.
I hope you know and understand that everyone has a blind spot and that there are things that I do or say that might not be so pleasant for other people. I will not be aware of it forever if no one come and tell me about it. It was so touching just now, that I almost cried. But I didnt. I think I have done well in that area because I have to be strong for people. I just have to.
When people say they are going through a rough patch in their life, it always makes me wonder, how bad it really is. Sometimes I wonder if whatever they are going through is worse that my challengers. I guess, we always feel like we have the worst problem in the world.
And after the many many costly mistakes, I am still given another chance. Another chance to look inside myself and find that courage within me to keep on going no matter what obstacles stood in the way. Please God reveal to me who are the people who are true, and who are the people wearing masks, as I really do not want to be in a position to judge people.
I am only human. Please forgive me.
