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Forgiveness / Tuesday, October 31, 2006 @ 12:06 AM
I have finally finish my paper! Yay!! Somebody congratulate me! Actually I only started writing a little on Saturday and I only had 400 words. Last night I continued and today I finished writing 3500 words! Yay!
So tommorow is officially the last day of school and I am out of NIE! Yay! I am a little sad because I think the school is great but I will most definitely NOT be missing travelling 2 hours to school. I shall be having a 3 week break before I start classes over at DAS. I know it is suppose to be a 3 week break but my schedule is half full and I am pretty sure that by next week, all my free days will be taken up.
So yesterday I had the best time with my dear Raje. Its been so many months and I really missed her. I was supposed to go back at 2pm but guess what I was there till 6 pm! We just cant stop talking as always! Also, Shaman was telling me all kinds of stories about the Hindu Gods and I dont understand more than half of what he was talking. Haha..but he is a true Britt kid, so positive and we will definitely celebrate our birthdays together next year! Sri will be back by Fri and I cant wait! They are like my rock, they make me feel good even when they dont do anything but stand there. It was a relief to be able to talk to somebody about all the things that has been going on this year. I have not been able to tell someone EVERYTHING about the situation I am in and because of that I think some parties have misunderstood me big time. Unfortunately most people cannot understand what is not seen with their eyes and they interpret things on their own. I am happy because I choose to be, no matter what situation I am in. I choose to do so, but it does not mean I truly am. I choose to stay happy and eventually I hope to be truly happy. It is a done deal, I know it.
It saddens me but I have no choice but to brace myself more than ever to overcome this. I think I have survived being so bottled up for more than a year and if they dont come back, I think I will go berserk. Only God knows what in the world I am going through and I thank Him for giving me the strength and patience to see the truth and accept it.
Eric mentioned something on Friday PASE that has been lingering in my mind. He says to truly be able to help, we need to forgive. We need to forgive ourselves, the mistakes we have done in the past must be left behind and not brought forward as a bagagge. I have to forgive myself, it is about time I let go of the past and focus on what is in front of me. I deserve this more than ever. Only when I am able to forgive myself, I can forgive others as well.
Forgiveness
I have finally finish my paper! Yay!! Somebody congratulate me! Actually I only started writing a little on Saturday and I only had 400 words. Last night I continued and today I finished writing 3500 words! Yay!
So tommorow is officially the last day of school and I am out of NIE! Yay! I am a little sad because I think the school is great but I will most definitely NOT be missing travelling 2 hours to school. I shall be having a 3 week break before I start classes over at DAS. I know it is suppose to be a 3 week break but my schedule is half full and I am pretty sure that by next week, all my free days will be taken up.
So yesterday I had the best time with my dear Raje. Its been so many months and I really missed her. I was supposed to go back at 2pm but guess what I was there till 6 pm! We just cant stop talking as always! Also, Shaman was telling me all kinds of stories about the Hindu Gods and I dont understand more than half of what he was talking. Haha..but he is a true Britt kid, so positive and we will definitely celebrate our birthdays together next year! Sri will be back by Fri and I cant wait! They are like my rock, they make me feel good even when they dont do anything but stand there. It was a relief to be able to talk to somebody about all the things that has been going on this year. I have not been able to tell someone EVERYTHING about the situation I am in and because of that I think some parties have misunderstood me big time. Unfortunately most people cannot understand what is not seen with their eyes and they interpret things on their own. I am happy because I choose to be, no matter what situation I am in. I choose to do so, but it does not mean I truly am. I choose to stay happy and eventually I hope to be truly happy. It is a done deal, I know it.
It saddens me but I have no choice but to brace myself more than ever to overcome this. I think I have survived being so bottled up for more than a year and if they dont come back, I think I will go berserk. Only God knows what in the world I am going through and I thank Him for giving me the strength and patience to see the truth and accept it.
Eric mentioned something on Friday PASE that has been lingering in my mind. He says to truly be able to help, we need to forgive. We need to forgive ourselves, the mistakes we have done in the past must be left behind and not brought forward as a bagagge. I have to forgive myself, it is about time I let go of the past and focus on what is in front of me. I deserve this more than ever. Only when I am able to forgive myself, I can forgive others as well.
