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Ready? / Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @ 10:36 PM
I think I am not myself these few days. I am walking around like a zombie with so many things going in my head. Things to do, get done, this that, its crazy. Which reminds me, if I do self talk to myself, its a way for me to express myself, and I KNOW that my partner seating next to me will completely understand this because this is her area of expertise. Ha!
Still, I think I need to recollect and reorganise my thoughts. I was in a daze this morning, you know sometimes you wake up and you are not sure whether some things really did happen or was it all a dream. Yah, I had one of those, this morning. It was only after Nat and Ken came in that I realised I forgot to photocopy worksheets for them! Gosh!
Being spontaneous is most helpful in times like this. Nat actually made my day when he told me that he passed his English! Yay!! First time ever! I thought his expression was so priceless to me because clearly he has never ever experienced success and just passing makes him feel like he accomplished something great. I think Nathaniel, even with the drooling saliva and all, remains cute to me..as long as he is not rude, I cannot bear to scold him for being playful and noisy at times. He has seriously improve big time and I am soooooooo proud of him. I was asking him if the big exam paper helped and he said yes! I do not understand why some teachers just cannot see that he desperately need the big paper due to his visual perception problem. Why fight it and penalise him for the wrong reasons? I mean, will you punish a blind person for not being able to see?
After most of the boys completed the suvey, I realised that they all agreed that 'Miss A**i is strict about discipline in the classroom'-- not! While it is good that they do not think of me as strict as their other teachers, they sometimes forget that when I am strict and fierce, it is only because they forget that I am still their teacher. I just have to say "I am your teacher, learn how to show me and yourself some respect." and it will shut them all up.
Even so I make it a point to critise the negative action, not the boy so perhaps thats why to them I shall remain as the 'fun' teacher with the playground classroom. (Where did they ever get the idea that my classroom is a playground?!)
Like Nat, who likes to say "I dont care." whenever he faces a challenge in doing work, it worries me that they use this as defence mechanism. My reaction would be, "You might not care but I care enough about you to help. YOU have to help yourself first." I remember Nat almost in tears once when I did this. Maybe he was so in guilt that he was misbehaving and it does not hurt me more to see my students give up on themselves.
Which reminds me, invigilating the special accomodation cases was painful. There were so many blanks especially for the math paper ! I kept telling the boys to write something but truth was, they knew that there were going to fail and they just gave up.
That was painful and heartbreaking.
I do realise that there is only so much I can do for them, and my job is to equip them with enough skills, strategies and the right thought process so that they can go through life winning and not simply surviving.
I love my job but I love my freedom more.
I will be extremely busy within the next few weeks. After making a commitment, I wrote down my gameplan and realise that I have about 2 months to get everything done. Therefore the idea of going away for a short break during Dec was instantly removed from my head. Quite a short time to do everything but I shall remain focus and be accountable to my words.
Looking forward to a blast! ;) I am ready, I hope you are too.
Ready?
I think I am not myself these few days. I am walking around like a zombie with so many things going in my head. Things to do, get done, this that, its crazy. Which reminds me, if I do self talk to myself, its a way for me to express myself, and I KNOW that my partner seating next to me will completely understand this because this is her area of expertise. Ha!
Still, I think I need to recollect and reorganise my thoughts. I was in a daze this morning, you know sometimes you wake up and you are not sure whether some things really did happen or was it all a dream. Yah, I had one of those, this morning. It was only after Nat and Ken came in that I realised I forgot to photocopy worksheets for them! Gosh!
Being spontaneous is most helpful in times like this. Nat actually made my day when he told me that he passed his English! Yay!! First time ever! I thought his expression was so priceless to me because clearly he has never ever experienced success and just passing makes him feel like he accomplished something great. I think Nathaniel, even with the drooling saliva and all, remains cute to me..as long as he is not rude, I cannot bear to scold him for being playful and noisy at times. He has seriously improve big time and I am soooooooo proud of him. I was asking him if the big exam paper helped and he said yes! I do not understand why some teachers just cannot see that he desperately need the big paper due to his visual perception problem. Why fight it and penalise him for the wrong reasons? I mean, will you punish a blind person for not being able to see?
After most of the boys completed the suvey, I realised that they all agreed that 'Miss A**i is strict about discipline in the classroom'-- not! While it is good that they do not think of me as strict as their other teachers, they sometimes forget that when I am strict and fierce, it is only because they forget that I am still their teacher. I just have to say "I am your teacher, learn how to show me and yourself some respect." and it will shut them all up.
Even so I make it a point to critise the negative action, not the boy so perhaps thats why to them I shall remain as the 'fun' teacher with the playground classroom. (Where did they ever get the idea that my classroom is a playground?!)
Like Nat, who likes to say "I dont care." whenever he faces a challenge in doing work, it worries me that they use this as defence mechanism. My reaction would be, "You might not care but I care enough about you to help. YOU have to help yourself first." I remember Nat almost in tears once when I did this. Maybe he was so in guilt that he was misbehaving and it does not hurt me more to see my students give up on themselves.
Which reminds me, invigilating the special accomodation cases was painful. There were so many blanks especially for the math paper ! I kept telling the boys to write something but truth was, they knew that there were going to fail and they just gave up.
That was painful and heartbreaking.
I do realise that there is only so much I can do for them, and my job is to equip them with enough skills, strategies and the right thought process so that they can go through life winning and not simply surviving.
I love my job but I love my freedom more.
I will be extremely busy within the next few weeks. After making a commitment, I wrote down my gameplan and realise that I have about 2 months to get everything done. Therefore the idea of going away for a short break during Dec was instantly removed from my head. Quite a short time to do everything but I shall remain focus and be accountable to my words.
Looking forward to a blast! ;) I am ready, I hope you are too.
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