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Dont ask / Thursday, February 15, 2007 @ 11:45 PM
Regrettably today, I had to relive some of my negative past. The test today was simply depressing. I do not know how or why I underwent some temporary stupidity and carelessness and I had to pay a heavy price. In that one moment, the turn of event was able to change me from being confident to being a total failure. It was a horrible feeling and I felt like I was in the past once again.
I knew I had come a long way from that distorted self image of the past, to now. It seemed that the right thing to do is to continue looking forward and swear not to repeat my mistakes. Moving on sounds so easy but actually doing it takes a lot of courage that I find missing in myself now. How can I help the children with low self esteem if I am having a low self esteem myself? I have to confront my fears first or I will never be the teacher that I have always wanted to be.
I am trying my very best to not break down and for the sake of everyone around me, my future students, I have to bring myself up, find the courage and guts to move forward, and never look back. Forgive me if I remain quiet. The healing shall begin so for this period of time, please stop asking me about the test today.
I shall reflect and rethink my strategies and put in nothing less than the best. To be beyond average.
I was not delivered into this world into defeat, nor does failure course in my veins. The slaughterhouse of failure is not my destiny.
Do not worry, I shall bounce back in no time.
Dont Ask
Regrettably today, I had to relive some of my negative past. The test today was simply depressing. I do not know how or why I underwent some temporary stupidity and carelessness and I had to pay a heavy price. In that one moment, the turn of event was able to change me from being confident to being a total failure. It was a horrible feeling and I felt like I was in the past once again.
I knew I had come a long way from that distorted self image of the past, to now. It seemed that the right thing to do is to continue looking forward and swear not to repeat my mistakes. Moving on sounds so easy but actually doing it takes a lot of courage that I find missing in myself now. How can I help the children with low self esteem if I am having a low self esteem myself? I have to confront my fears first or I will never be the teacher that I have always wanted to be.
I am trying my very best to not break down and for the sake of everyone around me, my future students, I have to bring myself up, find the courage and guts to move forward, and never look back. Forgive me if I remain quiet. The healing shall begin so for this period of time, please stop asking me about the test today.
I shall reflect and rethink my strategies and put in nothing less than the best. To be beyond average.
I was not delivered into this world into defeat, nor does failure course in my veins. The slaughterhouse of failure is not my destiny.
Do not worry, I shall bounce back in no time.
