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You can call me Noi! This blog consists of my thoughts. I am just a simple person with BIG dreams! Like the charcoal, hot pressure and extreme heat must be present in order to create a Diamond. I am in the exact same process.
When life comes to a standstill / February / Are you normal? / Believing in your own words. / A breather and a mission / Staying fruity / The Sunday night blog entry / Character / You can change. / Zombied /
Dear Moon,
I would like to thank everyone for the wishes. I feel so blessed that so many people took the time and effort to send me messages via email, sms, friendster, facebook. It is really so sweet of you and I am so thankful for your thoughts. I was also pleasantly suprised and equally embarassed to have our awesome Britt team singing for me. So embarassing because I was really not well dressed at all that day. I came straight from school and I forgot to bring my jacket so I thought I looked really sloppy next to the sharp and smart looking people. Nevertheless thank you Naf, I think Naf is more excited than me about celebrating this day. Haha. I knew something was different went I came back from the toilet and oh yes, the 'watch' incident. I was really blur! Goodness. Still, getting a hug from every lady in the team was such a great feeling and come to think of it, Margaret never fails to give me THE hug every year and hers was the most touching. I almost cried.
Yeah I know, I cry every year on this day. But still, I thought the reasons for my teardrops changes every year.
This must be the xx times that Nurul wishes me exactly at midnight. It has been so many years, I have lost count. Thank you dear! Nurul too, like Naf is more excited than me.
I was also so suprised to have Rose giving me a bouquet of flowers early in the morning at 7am. It is wonderful to have someone with the same birthdate at the workplace and I kinda feel bad that I didnt get anything except a card for her. Still, its sweet, roses from Rose.
You know Moon, I had no intention to celebrate, as I mentioned in my previous entry. I feel that I am still so far way from what I really wanted and even though I made the decision to change this year, I am a little angry and frustrated with myself for letting so many distractions get in my way. Plus, in my family we do not really celebrate, its just a day of reminder for us to change the number we put down as age. People say its sad that we do not celebrate but that has been the environment we grew up in and I am used to it. It is really ok, I really hate it when people feel sorry for me. Please do not feel sorry.
I remember exactly 3 years ago at my old place, I was looking at you. You were so beautiful and my dream of watching you with someone special still remains till today. I was so sure. Today I look at you again, you are still so beautiful. The wind just adds a spirit of serenity to the whole atmostphere. I will keep my promise so be sure to wait for my presence.
Dear Moon, I am so puzzled by some happenings in my life. I am sure you can see it from where you are. You tell me, if I deserved everything that happened to me. I am not going to complain or whine about the happenings but still, if it is my fault, you have to let me know. I must be doing something to attract all these happenings and all I want is a peace of mind to make my dreams and desires come true.
But still Moon, I think I have done a great job by not breaking down or even allow myself to be shaken by all these. I think I deserve a pat on the back for successfully keeping myself strong. I also think that the main reason why I was able to do this is because of the wonderful blessing bestowed on me. I am constantly surrounded by positivity. This, I know, I cannot get it anywhere else.
I am so jealous of you Moon, even though you do not have your own light, your selflessness in reflecting others light and shine has made you a beauty. I hope to be like you, you are my inspiration.
Therefore, the picture above, is dedicated especially for you Moon. I understand that any love you show and have is because you start your love from the inside. Thank you for teaching me something so valuable.
