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Bouncing Back / Saturday, February 17, 2007 @ 9:44 PM
Hey all,
I am back and better as I made it to be. I do not remember being so depressed in the longest time. I thought I left that old self behind a long time ago. But I guess, even as I moved on, there will always be that part of the memory that cannot be change or simply forgotten. I was reminded of that again, largely due to what God has in store for me. I have been through worse and I know that no matter what tough situations I am in, it will eventually pass.
For those of you who see me now, it will probably be hard to believe that I had such a depressing past. It is not easy to get out of thinking too lowly of oneself. I am glad I did without the help of major intervention from psychologists and psychiatrists.
Thank you for your concerns, I am truly touched.
Thank goodness, the test result today provides me with that feeling of consolation. Actually I failed during the trial test and I was worried that I might fail again for the actual test. I was so paranoid that I went through all my answers twice and I was the 2nd last person to leave the class. I was the second to leave the class during the first test and I learnt a great deal that ignorance equivalents to stupidity in wasting time and money. I was almost certain that I would collapse in agony after the test if I fail.
Now that its over, I just have to figure out how to make full use of the public holidays the next few days to finish all that I have to do. The whole of last week was so tough and I am still amazed that I came out in one piece. I kept telling myself that I will get through it, but the truth is, I do not want to get through it. I want to enjoy it, learning is suppose to be enjoyable and I have always believe that we can learn something everyday if we listen and look a little harder.
Something is bugging me. I cant stop thinking about it and I hope by writing it here, I get to clarify my vision and thoughts, or at least find an answer to it.
I met an old friend a couple of weeks ago. We are acquaintances so we are not really that close. We have not seen each other for 3 years and she was asking me for my number so that she could invite me to her wedding late this year. (That seems to be the only reason why people ask for my number nowadays) So, being nosey as always, I asked her if I knew her future husband. She then went on telling me how they were from the same primary school and then they lost contact for more than 10 years and now they meet again. This is the interesting part. She told me that the first time they met last year was went she approached the guy because he could not recognize her at all. Shen then went on to mention that the sole reason for that is that she used to be really fat in school. (Now she looks like a walking stick) Of course, when I realised that she got so excited telling her wonderful love story to me, I was cursing myself for even starting the conversation. Apparently the guy, now seing her being so beautiful compared to when they were in primary schools, decided that they are soulmates and it is fated that they should meet and get married and live happily ever after.
Something bothers me. What if she is still fat now like when she was in primary school? Would the guy still fall in love with her? What if you were the guy? What would be your reaction? And please do not give me the bullshit about falling in love with the personality of the girl because that takes time. This did not.
Is our preference for outer beauty clouding our judgement of inner beauty? Is looking good so important that we set such high standards for the people we qualify into our lives?
Bouncing Back
Hey all,
I am back and better as I made it to be. I do not remember being so depressed in the longest time. I thought I left that old self behind a long time ago. But I guess, even as I moved on, there will always be that part of the memory that cannot be change or simply forgotten. I was reminded of that again, largely due to what God has in store for me. I have been through worse and I know that no matter what tough situations I am in, it will eventually pass.
For those of you who see me now, it will probably be hard to believe that I had such a depressing past. It is not easy to get out of thinking too lowly of oneself. I am glad I did without the help of major intervention from psychologists and psychiatrists.
Thank you for your concerns, I am truly touched.
Thank goodness, the test result today provides me with that feeling of consolation. Actually I failed during the trial test and I was worried that I might fail again for the actual test. I was so paranoid that I went through all my answers twice and I was the 2nd last person to leave the class. I was the second to leave the class during the first test and I learnt a great deal that ignorance equivalents to stupidity in wasting time and money. I was almost certain that I would collapse in agony after the test if I fail.
Now that its over, I just have to figure out how to make full use of the public holidays the next few days to finish all that I have to do. The whole of last week was so tough and I am still amazed that I came out in one piece. I kept telling myself that I will get through it, but the truth is, I do not want to get through it. I want to enjoy it, learning is suppose to be enjoyable and I have always believe that we can learn something everyday if we listen and look a little harder.
Something is bugging me. I cant stop thinking about it and I hope by writing it here, I get to clarify my vision and thoughts, or at least find an answer to it.
I met an old friend a couple of weeks ago. We are acquaintances so we are not really that close. We have not seen each other for 3 years and she was asking me for my number so that she could invite me to her wedding late this year. (That seems to be the only reason why people ask for my number nowadays) So, being nosey as always, I asked her if I knew her future husband. She then went on telling me how they were from the same primary school and then they lost contact for more than 10 years and now they meet again. This is the interesting part. She told me that the first time they met last year was went she approached the guy because he could not recognize her at all. Shen then went on to mention that the sole reason for that is that she used to be really fat in school. (Now she looks like a walking stick) Of course, when I realised that she got so excited telling her wonderful love story to me, I was cursing myself for even starting the conversation. Apparently the guy, now seing her being so beautiful compared to when they were in primary schools, decided that they are soulmates and it is fated that they should meet and get married and live happily ever after.
Something bothers me. What if she is still fat now like when she was in primary school? Would the guy still fall in love with her? What if you were the guy? What would be your reaction? And please do not give me the bullshit about falling in love with the personality of the girl because that takes time. This did not.
Is our preference for outer beauty clouding our judgement of inner beauty? Is looking good so important that we set such high standards for the people we qualify into our lives?
